‘I can think of one thousand places much worse than this’
It’s a depression thing, there are always places that are so much worse than the place you’re in. However being stuck in that very dark, very grim place sucks the life right out of you. I always try to hold on to love. The love of my family, my pets, my friends. That is my light.
Music is another thing that makes life a little more bearable at the darkest of times. It at least gives the impression you’re not the only one who is completely messed up in so many ways.
May the light be upon me
May I feel in my bones that I am enough
I can make anywhere home
My fingers are clenched, my stomach in knots
My heart it is racing, but afraid I am not
I never feel enough and I’m always afraid. I’ve learned that even though you feel like you’re drowning, you never actually drown. The whole trick is to just get up again the next morning, and the next, and.. so on. So that’s what I’m doing for now. Oh, also buy very expensive but very comfortable sheets. Good bedding is like being hugged by a cloud.. who doesn’t want that? 🙂